Argh

[joreth]

I make a terrible patient.  I bitterly resent the frailties of the human body.  I am extremely angry and frustrated at my temporary inability to do the things I enjoy doing.  I just had to turn down work because it was too physically demanding during my recovery period.  I don't really feel like discussing what's wrong with me, suffice to say that I'm progressing normally and this should all be over in a couple of weeks with no lingering impediments.

But I hate being sick and I hate being incapacitated.  I hate sleeping, eating, going to the bathroom, being sick, anything that takes time away from the enjoyment of life.  Part of my enjoyment comes from being physically active.  I can't dance, I can't work.  I can only take sit-down gigs like long-throw camera calls which are few and far between.  I had a slow summer and have not yet recovered my finances and now this gets in my way.  This is incredibly frustrating and because I can't do anything "strenuous" I can't even be properly aggravated. 

Comments

[omnifarious.livejournal.com]

:-( I can see how that would be frustrating. It seems to me that you are like klicrai in that your ability to move and effect the world is a huge part of your identity and self-image. I am not that way, but there are other things I would be similarly debilitated by that I bet wouldn't bother you nearly so much.

I hurt my heel rather badly yesterday by landing way too hard. I'm hobbling around a lot now, and it's irritating, but I bet you would find it a lot more irritating than I do.

I hope you feel better soon.

[phyrra.livejournal.com]

*hug*