I'm not very visual and don't tend to enjoy visual porn, but I can enjoy watching it with a partner if they enjoy it. I like their enjoyment and that it usually means a fair bit of slow build-up which usually involves snuggling. And I find porn interesting the way I find almost all human creations interesting, since I love human psychology.
However, watching real people feels very different for me. How I feel about it depends on the details, but at its best, I really like it. The best time I ever got to watch two people having sex, it just felt very warm and loving. The way I usually try to explain it is imagine two people are fighting. You're not part of that fight, they're just fighting and you're in the room. Imagine how uncomfortable it is and how unpleasant it is to have that in your proximity. Now imagine the opposite of that, two people expressing love and kindness to each other. I found it very soothing and sweet. Often though it's just interesting to me. I like getting to learn more about other people and see more aspects of them. But it isn't usually sexual to me nor is it always as wonderfully soothing. But it's generally a positive experience as long as everyone involved is okay with what's going on. (Walking in on people who don't want you there is unpleasant as was the time I woke up to realize my college roommate was having sex with her boyfriend. I knew I wasn't welcome, but I wasn't exactly consulted before they started nor did I have very good options, so I just did my best to pretend to still be asleep. This was not pleasant. Although it was fascinating and I got a really funny story about it because it then devolved into them having a particularly wince-inducing argument about their sex life.)
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Date: 6/21/09 05:34 am (UTC)From:However, watching real people feels very different for me. How I feel about it depends on the details, but at its best, I really like it. The best time I ever got to watch two people having sex, it just felt very warm and loving. The way I usually try to explain it is imagine two people are fighting. You're not part of that fight, they're just fighting and you're in the room. Imagine how uncomfortable it is and how unpleasant it is to have that in your proximity. Now imagine the opposite of that, two people expressing love and kindness to each other. I found it very soothing and sweet. Often though it's just interesting to me. I like getting to learn more about other people and see more aspects of them. But it isn't usually sexual to me nor is it always as wonderfully soothing. But it's generally a positive experience as long as everyone involved is okay with what's going on. (Walking in on people who don't want you there is unpleasant as was the time I woke up to realize my college roommate was having sex with her boyfriend. I knew I wasn't welcome, but I wasn't exactly consulted before they started nor did I have very good options, so I just did my best to pretend to still be asleep. This was not pleasant. Although it was fascinating and I got a really funny story about it because it then devolved into them having a particularly wince-inducing argument about their sex life.)
However, people definitely vary.